28.4.05

This ruined puzzle
is beige with the pieces
all face down.

So the placing goes slowly.
The picture's of anything
other than it's meant to be.

But the hours they creep
The patterns repeat
Don't be concerned,
You know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "Don't Go"
don't go

But I've hidden a note
It's pressed between pages that
you've marked to find your way back.
It says......
"Does he ever get the girl? "

But what if the pages stay pressed,
The chapters unfinished,
The stories too dull to unfold?

Does he ever get the girl?

This basement's a coffin
I'm buried alive
I'll die in here just to be safe.
I'll die in here just to be safe.

'Cause you're gone
I get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh
I never said goodbye.

And I've hidden a note
That's pressed between pages
That you'll read if you're so inclined
Does he ever get the girl?

But the hours they creep
The patterns repeat
Don't be concerned
I know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "Don't Go"
don't go

Does he ever get the girl?

25.4.05

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23.4.05

You're the closest to Heavan that I'll ever be...and I don't want to go home right now. All I can taste is this moment and all I can breathe is your life. Sooner or later it's over.

I don't want the world to see me, because I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken... I just want you to know who I am.

You can't fight the tears that aint coming.

it's over.

17.4.05

Stay with me
You're the one I need
You make the hardest things seem easy

Keep my heart
Somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sun shines slow
Always keep me close

If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise, you promise that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

Don't let go
Dig a great big hole
Down and in this hole, we'll both go

You're so blind
You can't see me this time
Hope comes from inside
And I feel so low tonight

I wish that you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry, you swear it, you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

Take me, I need your hand
So far, to pull me up
Take the will out from me, so far

I wish that you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry, you swear it, you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

Keep my heart
Somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sun shines slow

Always keep me close

14.4.05

So quiet.
Another wasted night
The television steals the conversation.
Exhale.
Another wasted breath
again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired,
cause if it's more than that I fear that I might break.
Out of touch. Out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed,
cause I can't read your rolling eyes.
Out of touch. Are we out of time?

Closed lipped
another goodnight kiss is robbed of all its passion.
Your thrill
another time to slack has left me feeling empty

Please tell me you're just feeling tired,
cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break.
Out of touch. Out of time
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed,
cause I can't read your rolling eyes.
Out of touch. Are we out of time?

I'll wait until tomorrow.
Maybe you'll feel better then,
maybe we'll be better then.
So what's another day
when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you?
This mood of yours is temporary.
It seems worth the wait to see you smile again.
Out of the corner of my eye
won't be the only way you're looking at me then.

I swear that I can go on forever, again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips, and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone?
Because I am.
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
Because I am.
I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open 'til sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now?
I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming
And if you will... keep me from waking, to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone?
Because I am.
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
Because I am.
I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you

12.4.05

I walk a crooked twisting path
That seems to be leading nowhere
I lead a loner's life
Not what I meant to do

I do what seemed to be
The right thing at one time
But now that time has passed
And I'm the last one
Walking down this path

I walk along the same old streets
Where we used to meet by chance
But now there's not one familiar face
There's not one knowing glance
There's just my memory

A problem that I seem to have
Is not being able to appreciate
Or understand
The present until it's past
And so it goes
Away

11.4.05

How are you feeling
Do you feel ok?
Because I don't
It keeps me reeling
Will I ever be the same?
No, I won't.
Its a cold day in a cold world
I really wished I could have saved you
Then who would save me from myself?
Right now, well, I could use a stiff drink
To kill the pain that's deep inside my bones
Have you been dreaming?
I don't dream at all
I have nightmares
Memories careening
Have you come to kill what's left
Of my smile?

Theres no vacancy in paradise

I really wished I could have saved you
Then who would have saved me from myself
Right now, well, I could use a stiff drink
To kill the pain thats deep inside my bones
I really wished I could have saved you
Then who would have saved me from myself
I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you

I won't talk
I won't breath
I won't move until you finally see
that you belong with me
You might think
I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
I'm weak
It's true
Because I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me to?
Because my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true.
You don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
But I'm scared to know the ending
Do you see me too
Do you even know you met me?
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you.

All my life I've waited
This is true.

8.4.05

We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shorline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows

So keep the blood in your head
and keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then you and I can do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed
Their parents let them shoulder all the blame

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

I life for only you
And I lie well
Hallelu....

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and CAPITALS